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yesterday night i quarrel with parents again. why dont they seem to understand the stress that im going through? as im trying to get rid of them, they are adding more and more pressure on me. was really angry with ahma cos she seems to be helping them. i was so mad that i kap her then shut off my phone. she made me cry. judging on the situation now, i really dunno whats gonna to happen on monday. i DONT dare to go home. with a cousin in the same sch, i cnt keep it for long. they will find out on that day. what to do?
AHHHHHHHHHHhhhHhhhhhhHhhhhhh!!!
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went school for bloody boring chi essay test? it was BLOODY boring! i was so tired luhs. haha. it was soooo funny. i write write write then stop, look at watch, 15 mins pass nia, so i decided to catch a nap. then i slpt for 15 mins wake and contd writting, very tired! so i closed my eye and write, end up my words were all cramped together, 2 words in a box-.-
slacked on till 1230 then left sch w bex and yanxin. accompanied me to collect my passport. it was damn long luh. then we decided to go out and get ice-cream. ate finish went back to ICA. the number jump from like 1839 to like 1893? ha. were so bored that we started to guess who counter i have to report to:) so after collecting, yanxin bought us to her neighbourhood to eat. she say quite nice the food. while ordering, she's super FUNNY okay. haha! YOU SUCKS AT ORDERING FOOD:) its okayy, try harder next time. was quite fun today with the three of them :)) Thanks for accompanying.im super worried. scared and more of stress and confused. ms guo tell me to think about my plans, now mr lau also said that. i dont believe in miracles. i was given a chance to make my own decision at the beginning of the year whether to choose poly or jc, and i chosed jc. i dint make the best out of it. but i dint regret my decision. but now, dad's insistent that i go poly alr. but i WANT to stay on in jc! its gonna be tough to persuade him but i'll make sure i do. im unsure myself. ahma is sure trying hard to make me happy and relieve stress. thanks for the shhows! love ya. hmm, so stress till i get frustrated so easily x) compromise with me yea? promise i'll try and not make it happen again.
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early morning accompany brother to queenstown swimming complex to take his gold* exam. though he was the youngest shortest and does not look at all fit, he passed! HORRAY. then aft taht rom for cuz wed. pretty her lor. so sweet.
went home then waited for yixiang and company to update me what and where to meet to celebrate pb birthday. received called at 1plus 2? then i went dpwn tm to meet them. they were at the foodcourt at level 4. aft that walk chat talk and went movie with derr, pingb, yixiang, leslie and me!!! watched eagle eye. hey! it's nice okayy. ellene dint join us cos she watch before. then aft movie met vernon at mac's. then came ray and ed.
decided to go simpang bedok to eat. gastric luhs. i only drank like half can of sprite? haha, but im tough, can stand it..D then after that went to playground nearby to play- blind mice! was fun okayy. then around 10 plus 11 we went saperate ways. then here am i. at home. >D
have to print out the 40 page gpp x) and eat gas med.
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at tm, apparently mak doesnt know tm. she only knows whads lot 1? then we shop shop and shop. then went to mac. walked one big round from tm because i dint know where is it.( super lousey tourguide-.-) aft that went back to shop and shop. finally left around 6plus 7. FINALLY cos im not a shopping person. and here im posting.
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tmr's going back for piano lessons >D maybe it'll be sth to look forward to? i surely hope so.
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then we had like a 3hr break inbetween before pw. and i dint do my I&R- luckily he dint want it today. anyway, so i went to return aunty money. then she gave me a present?- a pencil and a map! haha. anw, intitally going for a run w her at 6, but i think if i go hm, i wont want to go sch again. so end up neh go. went home with belinda>D she's super nice. anw, had some form of disagreement with aunty. but end up okay alr. she's unhappy and demoralise now? cos she run 2.4km in like 1320? thats like 1 min faster than me luhs! she say she has to be faster than a minute then can get money. HAHA>.< all the best for tmr then!
i just ran like 2km. so tired. im getting old.
shall go do I&R now if not tmr sure kenax) tmr got basketball match w s5? JIAYOU!
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ytd stayed at home trying and slack whole morning.. cause when i woke up, my whole body is like damn sore. especially my leg. zZz at least it indicates that those are not fats. then i slept for whole afternn up till 4plus then decided to wake cause had to send sth impt to guo-y if not later no time alr.
left house at 7 and went off to meet clique for dinner at 85. wasnt in a very good mood. dint know what bus to take to bring me there from my ahma's house so i called leslie who lived nearby. then he said. WALK! so farrrrrr~ so end u we walked over. raymond was first. leslie kok eye o.0 ray is like sitting down at the flowers there he dint see! huahua! ate sotong, stingray, the hum( what do they call it?), friend oyster egg, etc. all spicy food. my stomach wasnt very good, so dint eat alot also. after dinner went to playground played. they bullied me. haha tried to make me drop from the stand. haha i made derrick fall!! so fun >D then came the rain. took shelter and play true, dare, double dare. it was so malu~~~~~~~~~~ feel like fainting. omg. stupid ms guo la, still dare laugh at me-.- xin1 zai1 le1 huo4. she's rather amused by what happened!-.- left around 11 plus, saperate way cos all diff bus stop. i went off with ray ed and derrick. walked under shelter, but aft that still have to walk under rain luh! so cold! but it was COLD>.< go home tio mehs cos i went out w/o telling my parent whr i went. then shower bathe and then talked on the phone for a WHILE. HAHAS!. realised i wasnt the pai kia ok! someone 1 plus going 2 alr still havent even go.
no plans for today, have to do I and R. gagagaga! ROAR! i hate PW mans!
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( Lavander mrt station )went to east coast park and arrived about at 10? ehheys, yanxin is quite pro ok! she knew how to walk over. im not joking luh, she seems to know how to go everywhere. we were quite early, then about 15 mins later, joel and company arrived. followed by val and company. biked for 2-3 hours? till my butt are like so pain! legs were sore!.. i fell down luh while cycling. my classmates are so sweet. one even bought first aid kid. they were so nice. helped me dress the wound. afterwhich we went to burgerking chat and left around 3plus. then jon led the way to the bus stop. initially catching a movie at orchard, but on the bus, we were soooo tired. so we decided to go and find some place to eat instead. when we were trying to get across the road in the heavy rain, it was super funny luhs. we had to tranport one by one across the road in turns. so fun>D. ended up in sing post hawker. first time after so long i was REALLY hungry. i ate a complete bowl of rice! the wise person was like: WOW! haha.
here i m at home? just now was so tired-im so burnt by the sun; body is aching from the cycling; leg pain from the fall; a number of blue-blacks found while i was bathing-WOW! i dunno how i fell, how come how body from head to toe all bruises.
IT WAS FUN TODAY! enjoyed it. BUT- im down with flu again.
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anw, i totally screwed up my PROMOS. it'll be a miracle if i get promoted. make me super emo these few days. esp after the physic paper when unexpectedly i cried. i really worked very hard this time. but it really issnt about working hard alr. i think im just plain dumb. the efforts that ms guo put into me is really alot, when i meant alot, its really ALOT. im so sorry to dissappoint her. She's so caring also, alway providing a listening ear to my problems and cheer me up and making me laugh whenever she can tell that im stress or unhappy. and ms au! the countless times where i was made to stay back for consultaion w her. even before the paper, the 2 days, the effort that she made to see me to ensure that i was sufficiently prepared to take the paper.
and ms guo told me to think about my plans too. cause we both think im gg to get like 9 points? or even lesser than that again.
so i have been slacking at home refusing to leave the house and sleeping in late.
ohh, but the fri outing with bex and company was really great, they really cheered me on! thou during the lunch i was sort of making myself laugh so that i wont make them feel weird. but afterthat they really made me laugh really hard and forget all my troubles that day. it was fun!
thanks to those who have encouraged me during this period, tolerating with my regular moodswings and all- especially bex and guo-y.
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